Unfiltered Words

It felt like my old insecurities were coming back. I had pushed them so far from the surface that I believed they were gone. 


The words meant no harm. They weren’t directed at me. But, when your own child is being discussed, then it’s as if the attack was made on you. 

The discussion was meant to try to find out why my 1 year old was not yet walking. His peers had started. My son, however, decided he wasn’t quite ready after 2 steps. 

“Maybe it’s because he’s big in the tummy and his feet aren’t as big.”

I felt crushed. He wasn’t fat and as far as I knew his feet were normal sized. Yet, these words were making me rethink things. My insecurities about my own body were slowly being projected onto my son. A comparison was made between him and another child in the room. The other boy was almost 2 months older, “had bigger feet”, and was walking/running for a while now. It made me feel like I was inferior as a parent and my son was slow. 

Maybe it’s because you carry him too much. He doesn’t want to walk because he knows you’ll carry him all the time.”

These words cut like a serrated knife. This person had no idea, but I’m not able to physically carry my son for long periods. I have back problems, so heavy weight exacerbates the discomfort. Thus, I can never hold him as long as I want to, no matter how many times he’s wanted me to. Additionally, I don’t have too much time with him during the week. I wish I could be there to even establish that desire to be constantly held.  That’s working mom life. 

It’s important to iterate that the person who commented meant no harm and were in no way trying to hurt us. They have no idea how sensitive I am about my son and his progress. They don’t know what their words make me feel. They have no idea that the things they said were similar to ideas and thoughts that triggered postpartum feelings. I bite my tongue to avoid any defensive words from coming out. I don’t want to be this way anymore. I don’t want to be so sensitive to innocent conversation. 

I try my best to ignore it. I don’t want to believe in them, but those words…those unfiltered words have more strength than I expected. 

Via Daily Post

9 thoughts on “Unfiltered Words

  1. I hate when people try to blame children’s development on the parent. Having four kids, I know that each of them grow, talk, walk, and learn at his own pace. There is nothing I can do to rush it. At 20 does it matter if my kid walked at 8 months or 15? Does it matter that she started reading at 7 or preferred history to math? Nope. Good for you for realizing you needed to find confidence in yourself and ignore the nay Sayers!

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  2. Walking and running at 1 years old for a boy isn’t “normal”. Every kid grows at their own pace. Boys learn to walk and talk later than girls, but again each child is different. Reo was that walking/running kid at 1, but Kio was 6 months LATER than Reo and I’m so thankful for that. I know it’s not easy, but don’t compare your lil one to other. Let him grow at HIS pace.

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  3. Oh sweet mama, sending you huge hugs. You are a loving mama and just like we all are unique, we all too develop differently. Not inferior or superior to anyone, just simply differently. I know you know this in your heart and yet still words can really hurt and stir up doubts. That’s also normal, been there for sure. Its a struggle when the standards that are meant to help guide us are taken as an absolute. I had moments that brought me to complete tears but truth is I realized that they had an opinion based on limited information. I had all the information and I knew that I was giving my all to raise my baby the best I could. I know it’s hard but focus on your full truth: You’re an amazing mama doing your very best with what you have and know. No one can take that away from you love. ♥️

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  4. Your child is beautiful and precious. He will walk, talk, run, and everything else in his own time. His time line is his own and that’s perfectly wonderful, perfectly unique. He is fortunate. He has a loving, caring, sensitive mom to help him find his way through life.

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  5. Every child develops at a different rate and it’s not anything to do with parenting or how they’re built, it’s just something that happens. I wish other parents knew how to keep their opinions to themselves.

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  6. Thank you for being so transparent! I can definitely relate as I’m highly sensitive about my 2 year old not yet talking. It can be difficult not to allow our insecurities to overshadow a slight comment or question about something sensitive, but I’m learning that every child learns at a different pace. We can’t let what other kids are doing, to make us feel like our child isn’t up to par. Best of luck to you, Mama! You’re little one will walk soon enough!

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