Yesterday, a friend asked how I felt about Mother’s Day. “Do you think of your mother during Mother’s Day typically?” It seemed like a very strange question. Maybe intrusive. Maybe just something out of sheer curiosity from someone who doesn’t understand loss in that way. Still, while the question was strange to think of, the … Continue reading Motherless on Mother’s Day
Stress
Reframing Thoughts
I sat on the call, feeling the anxiety build. Confusion, worry and doubt began to fester. “What in the world am I going to do here? Why am I even a part of this”? One by one the group members discussed the tasks at hand. The leader spoke quickly, firing off tasks and other items. … Continue reading Reframing Thoughts
Tools For Destressing: Essential Oils
Note: I was provided samples free of charge to review these products. I was not paid any additional compensation for this review. This past month has been full of ups and downs. My position was recently eliminated at my former company, and for the first time, I found myself “in transition”. I wasn’t prepared for … Continue reading Tools For Destressing: Essential Oils
Scatterbrained
I see the dates, but they don't click. I agree to them, but they don't commit to memory. Maybe, it's because everyday is now the same day. I don't have the life of a career woman and it only feels as if I'm halfway committing to being a stay at home mom. I have a … Continue reading Scatterbrained
The Lonely Night
Things wind down, and I eventually begin my evening routine. It's without much purpose, without any preparation for the next day. There aren't a list of things planned for the next day. In fact, every day feels like a Saturday. It's dark. It's generally quiet - only the sounds of my husband and son sleeping … Continue reading The Lonely Night
An Unexpected Ending
The day began like many others: a flurry of emails, inquiries to respond to, reports and issues to troubleshoot. I had planned to work on the prep for some large upcoming projects. I was sure to make headway on a lot of pending tasks. Then, mid afternoon, I went to a meeting. The next thing … Continue reading An Unexpected Ending
Surviving the Holidays with Postpartum Depression and Anxiety
The holidays are my favorite time of the year. I love what the season represents. I love giving gifts, helping others and being with family and friends. It had always been a special time for me. Yet, that wasn't the case a couple years ago. My son was only a couple months old and I … Continue reading Surviving the Holidays with Postpartum Depression and Anxiety
Weaning Off My Antidepressant
In September, my psychiatrist agreed that I was finally ready to wean off of my antidepressant. I had been doing very well, and have since fully recovered from Postpartum Depression and Anxiety. My therapist echoed the sentiment, citing numerous recent visits where I had shown tremendous improvement. I felt better and more confident than I … Continue reading Weaning Off My Antidepressant
The Reset
A month or so ago, I fell deep. My self-esteem plunged down into new lows. The the horrifying digits on the scale stung. It's not like I didn't feel it - but to see it was sobering. I decided to take my blood pressure - I stared at the numbers in disbelief. It was strange … Continue reading The Reset
Checking Boxes
Yes, no, yes, no. I've probably completed a handful of these things. I've had to go through them on my own, but generally with a professional. The assessments were always at least 5 pages long. They covered various things from speaking, to fine motor skills, and eating habits. The first of these assessments was done because … Continue reading Checking Boxes
This Mommy is Real 