Someone within our family just recently passed away. I didn’t know them too well. I did know of their life, and the struggles they’ve had to endure. Sadly, they left behind a young child.
My heart broke at the thought of how young this person was – the particular circumstances of their life wasn’t easy. Yet, from what I know, they did their best to provide a healthy and happy environment for their child. The age of that young child makes their story even more heartbreaking.
How do you comprehend the pain that your parent is going through? How do you know what to feel or how to express it? What went through their mind as their parent said their final goodbyes? What happens next? Why did this have to happen?
I thought about my own experiences. I lost my mother in my earlier teens. I lost my father in my 20s. No matter the age, the pain was and is still there. Yet, because of my age, I was able to grasp the reality of things.
I wish I could offer comfort to this child. I would I could say that none of this is their fault. Nothing that happened is reflective of who they are or what they’ve done. It’s life, and sometimes, life doesn’t make any sense.
It’s not easy to say goodbye, especially at such a young age. It’s of no comfort now, but saying farewell to someone doesn’t mean that they are forgotten. It will hurt a little less as time goes by, and during time, you will learn to cherish the memories and the lessons that were left by that person. It’s never going to be the same, but you will learn to laugh at the good moments; You’ll also learn that it’s just as acceptable to cry and miss them at other moments.
There’s nothing wrong about seeking solace from others or help. In fact, that makes you stronger. It’s not easy to open up about these difficult things, and may make you feel vulnerable. However, that’s all a part of the healing process. It’s hard to find people who can relate, or who would know how to help comfort you. But, it doesn’t mean that you can’t talk to anyone. Talking about it helps tremendously. The grieving process does not have to done alone.
A loss is hard no matter what is said or done. Each loss is unique and trying. As adults, we will always struggle with this. How can a young child really comprehend? The family member that passed was about my age. I couldn’t imagine going through what they did. I can’t imagine knowing how finite the time here would be, and that within days, I would be gone. I could not imagine how to say my own farewall to my family and friends, especially to my young child.
We all have to say goodbye, and it’s never going to be easy. It’s what we do to survive it that helps us through the process.