Scatterbrained

I see the dates, but they don't click. I agree to them, but they don't commit to memory. Maybe, it's because everyday is now the same day. I don't have the life of a career woman and it only feels as if I'm halfway committing to being a stay at home mom. I have a … Continue reading Scatterbrained

The Lonely Night

Things wind down, and I eventually begin my evening routine. It's without much purpose, without any preparation for the next day. There aren't a list of things planned for the next day. In fact, every day feels like a Saturday. It's dark. It's generally quiet - only the sounds of my husband and son sleeping … Continue reading The Lonely Night

An Unexpected Ending

The day began like many others: a flurry of emails, inquiries to respond to, reports and issues to troubleshoot. I had planned to work on the prep for some large upcoming projects. I was sure to make headway on a lot of pending tasks. Then, mid afternoon, I went to a meeting. The next thing … Continue reading An Unexpected Ending

The Painful Truth

Sometimes, late at night, I'm reminded of this painful truth.  While everyone else is sound asleep, I am awake and alone with the realization of something very certain. Inevitably, tears stream my face. They fall without any accompanying sounds, and I always try to shut my eyes tighter to make them stop.  It's all in … Continue reading The Painful Truth

Surviving a Goodbye

Someone within our family just recently passed away. I didn't know them too well. I did know of their life, and the struggles they've had to endure.  Sadly, they left behind a young child. My heart broke at the thought of how young this person was - the particular circumstances of their life wasn't easy. … Continue reading Surviving a Goodbye

The Last Words

The memory of that day will always be indelible.  The time following it remain charred and broken. When we said good-bye, we had no idea that it would be our last. It happened so long ago. The day began with such tension.  The reasons for the arguments were nothing but normal things between mother and … Continue reading The Last Words

Mommy Story: Losing Miu

Losing a child is never easy. In this post from the Mommy Series, Mayumi talks openly about the loss of her infant daughter, Miu.   When I found out that I was having triplets, I was ecstatic to hear that one was a girl. I could not wait to have her. From the moment I … Continue reading Mommy Story: Losing Miu

Smiling Faces

Every now and then it resurfaces. It's old, and slightly out of focus.  The faded colors and rounded edges make it distinctive from all the others in the collection. In it, are two individuals captured at a time when life was harder, but things were happier. Every now and then, I hold the grainy photo in my … Continue reading Smiling Faces

Fleeting Memories

 What do you remember about your mother? It had been quite some time since she passed, so at that moment, I wasn't sure how to answer.  Years later, I find that the memories of who she was, and what she did when we were children, are slowly fading away. I sit and sometimes wonder, what … Continue reading Fleeting Memories

Postpartum: Loss of Identity (Pt 2)

A few weeks ago, I discussed how Postpartum Depression and Anxiety, coupled with the obvious changes that come with Motherhood, changed my own perspective and identity at work.  If you've been following me on Twitter, you've noticed that I've been posting more because this week is Maternal Mental Health Week.  Thus, I thought it would … Continue reading Postpartum: Loss of Identity (Pt 2)