Too Soon For Goodbyes

The moment I heard it, I felt the familiar sting in my heart. A sudden, strong feeling that ached with the beginnings of loss. A mix of disbelief, fear and raw sadness rushed through me, resulting in an outburst of tears. No one could have prepared us for what this year would bring. It was … Continue reading Too Soon For Goodbyes

Motherless on Mother’s Day

Yesterday, a friend asked how I felt about Mother’s Day. “Do you think of your mother during Mother’s Day typically?” It seemed like a very strange question. Maybe intrusive. Maybe just something out of sheer curiosity from someone who doesn’t understand loss in that way. Still, while the question was strange to think of, the … Continue reading Motherless on Mother’s Day

Surviving a Goodbye

Someone within our family just recently passed away. I didn't know them too well. I did know of their life, and the struggles they've had to endure.  Sadly, they left behind a young child. My heart broke at the thought of how young this person was - the particular circumstances of their life wasn't easy. … Continue reading Surviving a Goodbye

The Last Words

The memory of that day will always be indelible.  The time following it remain charred and broken. When we said good-bye, we had no idea that it would be our last. It happened so long ago. The day began with such tension.  The reasons for the arguments were nothing but normal things between mother and … Continue reading The Last Words

Mommy Story: Losing Miu

Losing a child is never easy. In this post from the Mommy Series, Mayumi talks openly about the loss of her infant daughter, Miu.   When I found out that I was having triplets, I was ecstatic to hear that one was a girl. I could not wait to have her. From the moment I … Continue reading Mommy Story: Losing Miu

The Missing Piece

One by one, I examined the bursts of photographs.  Each one had a different expression, a slight movement, a new reaction. My son had an animated face, and he was clearly not impressed by the impromptu photo shoot. Suddenly, I stopped. It was just an ordinary photo - a capture of my son glancing directly … Continue reading The Missing Piece

From the End to the Beginning

This weekend is strange. It is a rare occurrence in which I was facing two very distinct parts of the life cycle: birth and death. My husband’s uncle had been ill for a long time.  It had come to the point where doctors had advised that there was nothing further that could be done, and … Continue reading From the End to the Beginning