In September, my psychiatrist agreed that I was finally ready to wean off of my antidepressant. I had been doing very well, and have since fully recovered from Postpartum Depression and Anxiety. My therapist echoed the sentiment, citing numerous recent visits where I had shown tremendous improvement. I felt better and more confident than I … Continue reading Weaning Off My Antidepressant
Health Goals
The Reset
A month or so ago, I fell deep. My self-esteem plunged down into new lows. The the horrifying digits on the scale stung. It's not like I didn't feel it - but to see it was sobering. I decided to take my blood pressure - I stared at the numbers in disbelief. It was strange … Continue reading The Reset
Just a Bit Longer
I have never been a fan of medication. I liked the idea that you can take a small pill to take away a temporary headache or pain. But those things were short term and never routine. Anything over a one time event meant something else to me. It meant a permanent problem. Thus, I incorrectly … Continue reading Just a Bit Longer
White Noise
It wasn't easy, but I forced myself into workout gear. I hadn't been doing it for very long, so it was a slow pace. I kept at it, believing that some day, I'd get better. All of a sudden, I heard laughter. Menacing laughter and then a water bottle was thrown at me. I stopped … Continue reading White Noise
A Mommy Story: PPD & Self-Esteem
This week, in A Mommy Story, we learn about Sunny. Sunny suffered from Postpartum Depression, which impacted her weight and self-esteem. Learn more about her story. After what felt like an eternity, I FINALLY got the disc from our photographer with our family photos on it. We’ve never taken photos together as a family, so … Continue reading A Mommy Story: PPD & Self-Esteem
The Meat Market
For the last 7 years, I actually enjoyed working out. I started out running - my motto was “5k everyday!”. Once I got bored of it, I moved onto boxing and Muay Thai. I loved it. I found it challenging and fun. I was healthy and had a great hobby. Even then, I was self … Continue reading The Meat Market
The Pile
July I glanced at the clock. "Good," I thought to myself. "I still have 20 minutes left." I try on item after item - each one finding themselves rejected and tossed onto my bed. In no time, the pile has gotten bigger, and I have made no progress. Nothing fits. Nothing. I stare at the … Continue reading The Pile
Not Quite There
Some months ago, I told myself that I would make life better. I said I was going to work on a healthier lifestyle. I set goals, and thought that I had the determination to do it. I wanted to re-engage some of my old habits. I wanted to feel healthy again. I missed it. Now, … Continue reading Not Quite There
Mental Health Day
A story had gone viral a few weeks ago about a young woman who told her colleagues via email that she was out so she could focus on her mental health. She promised to return the following week fully refreshed. The CEO responded, and he was very supportive of her decision to take care of … Continue reading Mental Health Day
Too Much
Post baby, I had a plan. I had to get out of my PPD / PPA rut and focus a bit on myself. I took on a number of things to help connect to my hobbies or old parts of me. The next thing you know, my mind was always running: baby, Poshmark, baby, work, … Continue reading Too Much
