Everyone does it, but this is something that I've done for years. I remember distinctly sitting on the couch in my elementary school years, writing in my pink My Melody secret diary. It was New Years Eve, and I told myself that I would always remember what I did in the year, what I learned … Continue reading 2019 Reflections
Health Goals
Tools For Destressing: Essential Oils
Note: I was provided samples free of charge to review these products. I was not paid any additional compensation for this review. This past month has been full of ups and downs. My position was recently eliminated at my former company, and for the first time, I found myself “in transition”. I wasn’t prepared for … Continue reading Tools For Destressing: Essential Oils
Weaning Off My Antidepressant
In September, my psychiatrist agreed that I was finally ready to wean off of my antidepressant. I had been doing very well, and have since fully recovered from Postpartum Depression and Anxiety. My therapist echoed the sentiment, citing numerous recent visits where I had shown tremendous improvement. I felt better and more confident than I … Continue reading Weaning Off My Antidepressant
The Reset
A month or so ago, I fell deep. My self-esteem plunged down into new lows. The the horrifying digits on the scale stung. It's not like I didn't feel it - but to see it was sobering. I decided to take my blood pressure - I stared at the numbers in disbelief. It was strange … Continue reading The Reset
Just a Bit Longer
I have never been a fan of medication. I liked the idea that you can take a small pill to take away a temporary headache or pain. But those things were short term and never routine. Anything over a one time event meant something else to me. It meant a permanent problem. Thus, I incorrectly … Continue reading Just a Bit Longer
White Noise
It wasn't easy, but I forced myself into workout gear. I hadn't been doing it for very long, so it was a slow pace. I kept at it, believing that some day, I'd get better. All of a sudden, I heard laughter. Menacing laughter and then a water bottle was thrown at me. I stopped … Continue reading White Noise
A Mommy Story: PPD & Self-Esteem
This week, in A Mommy Story, we learn about Sunny. Sunny suffered from Postpartum Depression, which impacted her weight and self-esteem. Learn more about her story. After what felt like an eternity, I FINALLY got the disc from our photographer with our family photos on it. We’ve never taken photos together as a family, so … Continue reading A Mommy Story: PPD & Self-Esteem
The Meat Market
For the last 7 years, I actually enjoyed working out. I started out running - my motto was “5k everyday!”. Once I got bored of it, I moved onto boxing and Muay Thai. I loved it. I found it challenging and fun. I was healthy and had a great hobby. Even then, I was self … Continue reading The Meat Market
The Pile
July I glanced at the clock. "Good," I thought to myself. "I still have 20 minutes left." I try on item after item - each one finding themselves rejected and tossed onto my bed. In no time, the pile has gotten bigger, and I have made no progress. Nothing fits. Nothing. I stare at the … Continue reading The Pile
Not Quite There
Some months ago, I told myself that I would make life better. I said I was going to work on a healthier lifestyle. I set goals, and thought that I had the determination to do it. I wanted to re-engage some of my old habits. I wanted to feel healthy again. I missed it. Now, … Continue reading Not Quite There
This Mommy is Real 