I found myself focusing on nothing else. I was a problem solver. I did things right. I was known for striving for perfection. Yet, I couldn’t win at this. I could not for the life of me win at (new) motherhood. I just didn’t know what to do. I didn’t understand what I had to … Continue reading Trapped by Fixation
Stress
A Mommy Story: PPD & Self-Esteem
This week, in A Mommy Story, we learn about Sunny. Sunny suffered from Postpartum Depression, which impacted her weight and self-esteem. Learn more about her story. After what felt like an eternity, I FINALLY got the disc from our photographer with our family photos on it. We’ve never taken photos together as a family, so … Continue reading A Mommy Story: PPD & Self-Esteem
Unfiltered Words
It felt like my old insecurities were coming back. I had pushed them so far from the surface that I believed they were gone. The words meant no harm. They weren’t directed at me. But, when your own child is being discussed, then it’s as if the attack was made on you. The discussion was … Continue reading Unfiltered Words
A Mommy Story: Silently Suffering with PPD
Every Mommy has a story. This is my opportunity to recognize these Moms and their experiences. In this post, we learn about Melissa, who did not know she was suffering from Postpartum Depression. I don’t think I can say that I was prepared for my labor. I wish I knew that there were so many … Continue reading A Mommy Story: Silently Suffering with PPD
New Outlook
For so long, all I ever knew was the work life. That was the most important thing. Circumstances have changed, and my outlook on my career and work life have also. It wasn't just "I became a mom"'; it couldn't be that because it felt a little more complicated. It was a little saddening, so … Continue reading New Outlook
Too Much
Post baby, I had a plan. I had to get out of my PPD / PPA rut and focus a bit on myself. I took on a number of things to help connect to my hobbies or old parts of me. The next thing you know, my mind was always running: baby, Poshmark, baby, work, … Continue reading Too Much
Travel Diaries: Baby’s First Trip!
Four months ago, I would have been scared to go on a plane with my son. I was convinced he'd be the crying baby and I wouldn't know what to do. I was afraid I'd forget something he needed. I would have anxiety just thinking of it. After all, I was afraid to go to … Continue reading Travel Diaries: Baby’s First Trip!
Postpartum: When Does it Get Better?
Another post for Maternal Mental Health Week! Today is #SayitSaturday! I thought it was fitting to also use the Daily Prompt, "Better", and tie it all in. Anytime you find yourself in a tough spot, you always wonder, "When will it get better? When will this all be over?" This is so true when you're … Continue reading Postpartum: When Does it Get Better?
Postpartum: Loss of Identity (Pt 2)
A few weeks ago, I discussed how Postpartum Depression and Anxiety, coupled with the obvious changes that come with Motherhood, changed my own perspective and identity at work. If you've been following me on Twitter, you've noticed that I've been posting more because this week is Maternal Mental Health Week. Thus, I thought it would … Continue reading Postpartum: Loss of Identity (Pt 2)
Relinquishing Control
"I'd like to speak to you about some changes; There were some things that started to take place while you were out, which resulted in some changes that will continue after you return from leave." I was confused and a bit anxious. I was in the office for a short time to pick up some … Continue reading Relinquishing Control
This Mommy is Real 