A month or so ago, I fell deep. My self-esteem plunged down into new lows. The the horrifying digits on the scale stung. It's not like I didn't feel it - but to see it was sobering. I decided to take my blood pressure - I stared at the numbers in disbelief. It was strange … Continue reading The Reset
Mental Health
Was I at Risk for Postpartum Depression?
The beginning was hard. Every week, I went to the support group. I couldn't bring my son with me. I was fearful of being anywhere outside of the home with him. I felt like I had no control. I felt broken and lost. I cried at every session. I was confused. Who had I become? … Continue reading Was I at Risk for Postpartum Depression?
Checking Boxes
Yes, no, yes, no. I've probably completed a handful of these things. I've had to go through them on my own, but generally with a professional. The assessments were always at least 5 pages long. They covered various things from speaking, to fine motor skills, and eating habits. The first of these assessments was done because … Continue reading Checking Boxes
Making Progress
Earlier this year, I wrote about my son, and the delay in his language skills. Despite my hesitation and concerns, I went ahead with the doctor recommended evaluation, and soon after, speech therapy. The speech evaluation was just as frustrating as I had thought it would be. We had an hour to convince my son … Continue reading Making Progress
Learning to Communicate
Not to toot my own horn, but I've been told from time to time that I have decent communication skills in the workplace. I am well-spoken, clear and professional. I am able to speak publicly to both large and important audiences without hesitation. My writing skills reflect the same. I sometimes am asked as to … Continue reading Learning to Communicate
reflection
It was a year and a half ago, but I remember looking in the mirror. Tears streamed down my face. My hair was a mess. My clothes were a mess - I think my nursing tank was on backwards. My eyes spoke volumes. I was tired. I was stressed. I was anxious. I was scared. … Continue reading reflection
Finding Fulfillment
Did you know that it's Maternal Mental Health Week? For the next five days, The Blue Dot Project is asking mothers to take the #RealMotherhood Challenge. Mothers throughout the internet are being encouraged to share photos and posts showing the true side of motherhood. This includes all the fun stuff, the non-Pinterest worthy stuff, and … Continue reading Finding Fulfillment
Just a Bit Longer
I have never been a fan of medication. I liked the idea that you can take a small pill to take away a temporary headache or pain. But those things were short term and never routine. Anything over a one time event meant something else to me. It meant a permanent problem. Thus, I incorrectly … Continue reading Just a Bit Longer
365 Days
It seemed so unfair. I was finally making progress with my recovery from Postpartum Depression and Anxiety. I was finally starting to enjoy motherhood. Yet, I had to leave that all behind and go back to being in the corporate world. It’s hard to believe, but a year ago today, I went back to work … Continue reading 365 Days
The Non-Verbal Impact
We would mention it every now and then. It seemed a little strange to us that our son could make so much progress in some things, but not make as much in another. We told ourselves that in time, he'd come around. Secretly, I knew that something was a little off. During his 15 month … Continue reading The Non-Verbal Impact
This Mommy is Real 