It was a year and a half ago, but I remember looking in the mirror. Tears streamed down my face. My hair was a mess. My clothes were a mess - I think my nursing tank was on backwards. My eyes spoke volumes. I was tired. I was stressed. I was anxious. I was scared. … Continue reading reflection
Reflection
Reblog: The Color of My Skin
Over the past year, I've detailed both the struggles and experiences in my life. It's been therapeutic writing about my postpartum experiences. I've had fun writing about Poshmark. I've learned so much from all of the guests authors. The blog has been more than I ever expected that it could be. Out of all that … Continue reading Reblog: The Color of My Skin
365 Days
It seemed so unfair. I was finally making progress with my recovery from Postpartum Depression and Anxiety. I was finally starting to enjoy motherhood. Yet, I had to leave that all behind and go back to being in the corporate world. It’s hard to believe, but a year ago today, I went back to work … Continue reading 365 Days
The Thief
I was always aware that things were different. Yet, as a young child, it seemed easier to ignore it. But then, it grew. I was always wondering why things were different. Why did I not look like the other girls in class? Why didn't we have the same things that others did? If there ever a constant … Continue reading The Thief
The Non-Verbal Impact
We would mention it every now and then. It seemed a little strange to us that our son could make so much progress in some things, but not make as much in another. We told ourselves that in time, he'd come around. Secretly, I knew that something was a little off. During his 15 month … Continue reading The Non-Verbal Impact
Struggle and Growth
It’s amazing how fast the year has gone by. Yet, when I think back to the beginning of it, that time seems so far away. In the beginning of 2017, I was a different person. I was suffering and hoping that changes weren't so far away. I had started a new anti-depressant and was given … Continue reading Struggle and Growth
Stolen Memories
At 7 weeks old, she felt like a feather. Her soft cries signaled hunger. She quietly drank from her bottle as I tucked her closer. I looked at her small face and tried to remember - what was this like ? After only but a few minutes, she was passed on to another friend - … Continue reading Stolen Memories
A Look Back
A friend of mine recently gave birth in the very same hospital that I did. Certain details of our experiences were close. We went into labor early due to unexpected circumstances. Her son weighed and measured closely to mine. They were placed one room away from where I was. Yet, in many ways, we were … Continue reading A Look Back
5 Reasons to Be Thankful
When I was younger, I kept a diary. I made my own tradition that at Thanksgiving, I'd write about what I was thankful for. On New Years' Eve, I'd write all the things I've done - both regrets and accomplishments, and reflect on what impact those things they had. I'd think about things I wanted … Continue reading 5 Reasons to Be Thankful
The Breakdown
The days would go by, and there was a countdown. Inevitably, my husband would have to return to work. We were only half way through his paternity leave, but I was still terrified. I knew that in a matter of time, my son and I would be alone. I had convinced myself that I was … Continue reading The Breakdown
This Mommy is Real 