July
I glanced at the clock. “Good,” I thought to myself. “I still have 20 minutes left.” I try on item after item – each one finding themselves rejected and tossed onto my bed. In no time, the pile has gotten bigger, and I have made no progress.
Nothing fits. Nothing.
I stare at the mirror in both sadness and disgust. Thirty minutes have gone by and I have nothing to wear. A closet full of things – and here I am empty handed. I feel ugly, fat and most of all, I feel that I’m a failure. I feel like I’ve regressed to my past self and I am once again, round and unhealthy.
August
The pile is still there. Messy, and in the way. It’s a reminder of everything that went wrong with my health. Of course, nothing fits. Why would it? What have I done to change it?
It didn’t matter that I had a baby. That was months ago. He’s almost a year now. What excuse did I have ?
I look in the mirror and wonder who the stranger is staring back at me. I look back at the pile with shame. Each piece seem to add to the disappointment.
September
Does it seem a little smaller? Could the changes really be making a difference? I stare at the mirror and wonder. How long before I see the old me again? One month down, but so many more to go.
The pile remains, I’m hoping not for much longer.
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I agree with Shelbibritton! Start fresh. =) Your body and YOU is because you gave the wonderful gift of life. Rock that body and find clothes that make you feel fabulous about how you look right now. Easier said than done of course. haha. You are a beautiful amazing mother. Be proud of you!
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Thank you ! Your words are very encouraging 😊
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Oh man. I have been there. I have two kids, so this definitely hits home!
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Many of us are in the same boat
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I never went back to my previous size. But I was a size zero before my child. I’m a small girl all around. 5’3 and all. It took me a while to accept the fact that I could lose all the weight but my hips would never go back. Took 3 yrs but I did it. Loving your body is so important.
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I’m glad you were eventually able to get down some. Yes, we all gotta love the skin we are in!
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Big fat cuddle coming your way!! I know the struggle is real and there are so many of us suffering too, but focus on being healthy and a good role model for your family, that’s what we should all cherish. Good luck with the pile, you’ll get there, hang in there.
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Thank you mama! I want so much to be healthier!
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Yay for progress! I’m in the middle of feeling gross again and my baby is 18 months old. I feel like coming to the end of breastfeeding has unleashed some gnarly hormones that are wreaking havoc with my skin, energy, mood, and waistline. It’s time to start making some changes instead of letting the downward spiral get ahold of me.
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Thank you! I think that feeling comes and goes for all of us. We can do this!
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Totally relate to this. Been there so many times in the past 57 years! It’s a never-ending battle!
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It is, but we can do this!
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Been there, done that! Focus on feeling healthy, rather than size. You’re outlook will change how you look at it all. Be active and involved with your kids and you will get there. Good luck!
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Thank you! Yes to being healthy!
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*Hugs*, love. You’re not alone. I’m there with you right now. 🙂 Keep up with those small little changes, and increase what you’re doing as you find the time and the energy. Do the best you can in each given moment, and then keep moving forward. You’ve got this, love.
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Aww thanks! I’m going to do my best!
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I guess we all have been there but its easier to handle it when I see my little one! I mean, our body will never be same after giving birth! Ok, some seems to be loosing the kgs just by breathing but we are not all the same. Start small, step by step and dont think change will happen over a night. Its hard but we can do it!❤️
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It’s hard for sure ! Definitely going to have to accept the pace!
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Ah I’ve been there mama. It’s a tricky balance loving that your body created life while still loving the “old you”. Start fresh and stay positive xx
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Yes! It’s a big balancing game !
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I think this is a struggle for every woman. The ups and downs of weight can feel so defeating. Start fresh with things that fit. Forget about what used to be and move forward! You cant start your day in a closet that slaps you in the face.
xoxo Christie
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this struggle is real and felt by most moms. I’ve been there. that pie will eventually shrink
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Very heartfelt- I think most moms can relate to how you feel. The good news is the pile will eventually be gone, but we are our children’s whole world for only so long. Hugs.
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I totally understand these thoughts and they can be so toxic! Get rid of those clothes and start fresh! Go for a minimalist view on your closet! So much less stressful and no toxic thoughts
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