I can’t explain when it all changed. I don’t know what contributed to it. I only remember wondering what made it so different than before. Most of all, I remember how disappointed I was when I realized that things were no longer what they were.
We were friends under the most interesting of circumstances. We shared a lot of laughs, major milestones in life, and a great understanding and appreciation for one another. No matter what was happening in life, we were there for each other.
Then one day, it wasn’t the same.
I know the last time I saw them, I felt different. As if I was stuck in the past. The friendship wasn’t what it used to be and I just didn’t see that right away. I figured that I was just reading things too deeply.
Later, I learned that I was right. Not too long after our last visits, the conversations were few and far between. The exchanges became nonexistent. Not even a text or a mention on social media. It was as if we had erased one another from our lives.
I reached out to them, and again felt a foreign feeling. I wasn’t a part of their life anymore. They had moved on, and were really happy.
I can’t pinpoint what happened. I just know we drifted apart. No arguments. No malicious acts. No misunderstandings. Life had changed, and so our friendship no longer existed.
I see their life now, and they are as happy as they can be. I know that I am too. We grow as we age, and in our case the bonds between us change.
I wish I could tell them I’m sorry. I wish circumstances were different. Most of all, I wish they knew how glad I was that they live a happy life….even if I’m not in it.