This week’s challenge was about looking / noticing the kind things and finding a way to express your gratitude for them. If there was ever a week that I needed kindness, this was it.
Work was beyond stressful. This is a season that is normally high stress and long hours. However, this time was especially difficult. Even worse, it was as if I kept making mistakes, which caused more work and longer hours. I didn’t feel confident at all, and I found myself back to being weepy, sad and helpless person. At a certain point, I cried at my desk while trying to clean up my work. Another time, the feelings of defeat were so strong, tha I had to retreat to the Mother’s (pumping) room to sit in the dark and calm down. It was as if PPD and PPA had taken complete control of me, and I was no longer a functioning person at work. I felt like I didn’t belong and that it would have been better if I was just let go.
My coworker saw how badly this affected me. She talked me through some of those moments. She picked up some of the work I couldn’t do. She tried to suggest solutions when some of my work didn’t make any sense. It was her idea to sit in the dark room to collect myself and breathe. In retrospect, this helped so much. Being older, she has worked through tough environments, serious challenges and stressful situations far beyond or similar to what I was experiencing. She let me know it happens to all of us. We are only human. We can make mistakes, but we can learn from them. And it’s ok to take a break…in fact it’s necessary in these situations. Her kindness helped calm me and get me through some difficult moments.
My work stress affected my personal life. A few nights, I didn’t spend time with my son. Worse, I lost track of dates, so my dad’s death anniversary completely slipped my mind. It wasn’t until a relative asked me a question that I realized what the day was. I was overcome with immediate grief and again, began weeping at my desk as I worked. I mentioned it to a few friends, and they were comforting. They didn’t say much, but the simple “I’m sorry” actually helped.
The work stress will continue for a bit longer, but I’m thankful for the people who have shown kindness through it. It definitely shows that simple kindness really helps us through those tough moments.
Thank you so much for participating in the challenge, Jenn. I’m sorry this was such a tough week for you but glad that the prompt helped support you to find perspective. Wishing you all that you need to support you in your journey. Sending you lots of love! ❤ ❤
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I’m glad you were able to notice and experience the kindness offered at the times you felt wobbly and challenged, and it sounds like you’re developing some strategies that can help.
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Its great when you have the support around to hep and talk. I always feel taking about it makes you feel better!!
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Yes, there are days, weeks, seasons that are stressful and more than difficult and we are able to endure with joy because of the kindness that finds us. As you have found kindness softens and strengthens us.
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Very true!
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Aw, Jenn. Being a mom is tough all around– being a working mom brings its own, unique set of challenges. But it’s nice to hear that other women are struggling with the same stuff, so thank for sharing 🙂
-Chelsey
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Isn’t that the truth?! It’s always something new, but that’s life ! 😁
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I feel you as I am also a working mom. There are days when I feel down because of certain issues with my family or various challenges at work. Being smothered with kindness has made me realize how much wonder it does. Thank you for the inspiration and I really hope that things will get better for you soon.
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It can be really hard but it helps that people understand!
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Hey Jenn-
Hope you are taking it easy…
Thanks for sharing your story. I am glad you got support to help you through these hard days. You make a valid point, in that it affects your ability to spend time with your son.
Sending you virtual hugs!
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Yes, work life can be stressful. But I’m very happy for you…that you’ve found some amazing friends to be around. Thanks for sharing!
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Thanks for sharing your thoughts and the beautiful way to confront problems by searching kindness and being grateful for it! Lot’s of luck in work, I’m sure you’ll find a great way to make an awesome work!
xoxo,
Pilar
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I hope things improve for you soon, it sounds as though things have been incredibly hard x
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You nicely describe all points. Good to read.
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Wow, sounds like things have been rough for you lately. I’m so glad you have the supportive people around you to help you through it.
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